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[10 Jul 2009|02:19am] |
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I'm so fucking pissed and I feel so fucking stupid about it.
Jimmy called,
"guess where I'm at!"
I hear a bunch of people,
"I dunno"
"who do you fuck?"
"you're at mcd's?"
"I'm at mike's house"
"Mike's at work"
"His bro is throwing a party. I cant believe I'm here!" *then he proceeds to describe mike's living room*
I wouldnt care. But not with jimmy. Fuck jimmy. I'm so sick of him.
The first time I brought mike over to his place i immediately regretted it.
Jimmy has been IN LOVE with Jimmy Martinez (i call him, white jimmy) since he was in highschool.
When I took mike over, one of the first things jimmy said was "you remind me of my friend jimmy" After that I never brought mike back.
But he would also try and weasle mike's number out of me (he asked for it once and I told him no). Like if my phone was dead he'd be like "text him from my phone" or "call him from my phone"
Then he was looking through my phone and was looking at a pic I took of mike playing basketball. I noticed he had stopped clicking through, so I looked over his shoulder and he said "mike's arms look all rowdy in this pic"
And not even a week ago we were talking about Aly & Diego, and Kristy & Henny (cant spell his full name) and he said "you're banging the hottest guy out of your sisters"
That made me uncomfortable.
ANNNND, whenever I dont want to go over, Jimmy will say stupid stuff like "mike's coming" or "Mike's here" or "he invited me over"
Just to push me.
That's why I thought this phone call was a joke.
But mike told me his bro had people over earlier.
Then matt told me he was there too.
I know this is all stupid. But Jimmy bangs straight guys.
He somehow always gets what he wants out of straight guys.
I feel like this is another way jimmy is trying to be more like me, by befriending my fuck buddy.
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[10 Jul 2009|10:09am] |
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It was like how it used to be,
after sex we'd sit and just talk.
He had the computer and would look up tattoo photos then we'd discuss them.We planned out his sleeve. He's really excited about it.
We even drew on our arms. Mine's covered.
I'm usually sad when he leaves because his visits are so short, but I had fun, so when he left I was in a really good mood.
THEN,
I was going to check my facebook, when I noticed his email was in the login.
I opened my history and it was filled with her myspace and facebook pages.
Now when I start typing out facebook.com, her page is in the drop down menu.
I dont think I'll clear it out yet.
Just a reminder of how stupid I am.
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[10 Jul 2009|10:36am] |
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She was a friend with a tattoo he had showed me.
My bad.
*Skips along*
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