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[30 Oct 2009|12:17am] |
For the past few days, I've just had the urge to make out.
I figured it was just sexual frustration,
but when usually when i'm frustrated, i take what I can get.
JE's been basically asking but,
1. I know now it bothers mike, and though we're not speaking, i still dont want to do anything
2. I just dont want sex
I realized today, what I miss is that feeling.
That school girl feeling.
I miss being really excited about somebody.
And seeing them makes your day.
And talking to them makes your week.
Today when walking out of the art building, I saw this couple walking, they got to this mini-pond-of-a-puddle, and he picked her up and carried her.
It was the cutest thing.
I'll never get to be that girl who gets carried.
Or gets to wear her bf's clothes.
Everytime I'm standing close to anyone, I feel like such a behemoth of a woman.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-6nn_v_zwM
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[30 Oct 2009|11:18am] |
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Why am I such a fucking idiot.?!
The other day while at the Italian coffee convo, the uvalde hospital called again about payment.
I had to run out of the room to answer, and was eager to get back, so I just gave the bitch my credit card number.
Now i'm flipping my shit because she's taking 200 on the first,
I only have 150, but I get paid on the first, BUT i dont have direct deposit, and it's a sunday, so the school is closed so i cant pick up my check.
;__________;
I'm not even out of college and life is already kicking my ass.
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| Happy Halloween! |
[30 Oct 2009|05:44pm] |
Tomorrow is Nov. 1!
In one month and 18 days I'll be graduating.
As much as I love this little apt I have here, I miss Doug.
I need to find a relatively cheap place that allows pets.
Last night, Allison Wheeler, who I took an English class w/ 2 years ago, asked me via facebook if I wanted to go to the movies.
I seriously havent seen her in 2 years, and I barely remember what she was like.
She's really sweet, and we have the same weird quirky tastes in things.
Like cats.
We went to see Paranormal Activity.
I thought that shit was about ghosts. Demons freak me out.
I thought it was pretty stupid until the end.
I had to hang out w/ her a while after because I didnt want to go home.
lol.
Slept fine though.
Woke up early this morning to close my acct.
It made me kinda sad.
What also makes me sad is that now that it's a new acct, they have this policy where if you deposit money, half is available the next day, the other half 4-5 days later, in order for them to build trust with you.
Fucking. Retarded.
I hate bank of america.
Been here all day cleaning/watching tv on hulu.
I kinda dont want to go out. I want to stay in and watch scary movies, but I know mary'll be pissed.
*sigh*
Mom sent me halloween cards.
:(
I want to go home.
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