For the past few days, I've just had the urge to make out.
I figured it was just sexual frustration,
but when usually when i'm frustrated, i take what I can get.
JE's been basically asking but,
1. I know now it bothers mike, and though we're not speaking, i still dont want to do anything
2. I just dont want sex



I realized today, what I miss is that feeling.
That school girl feeling.

I miss being really excited about somebody.

And seeing them makes your day.

And talking to them makes your week.



Today when walking out of the art building, I saw this couple walking, they got to this mini-pond-of-a-puddle, and he picked her up and carried her.
It was the cutest thing.

I'll never get to be that girl who gets carried.
Or gets to wear her bf's clothes.
Everytime I'm standing close to anyone, I feel like such a behemoth of a woman.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-6nn_v_zwM